Reconsidering The Blog

It’s almost been a year now since I began this blog.  At the time, I began it because I didn’t see a lot of conversion stories being told, at least not being told in detail with all the complexity involved.  I also didn’t see a lot of resources for prospective Orthodox Jewish converts out there beyond what to study and read.  There were so many things we’ve learned over the years in our own process that I wish we’d known years earlier that I thought a blog might be helpful to others starting this path.

I also just needed a place to be able to put words to what we had experienced and are still experiencing, both the highs and the lows.  It’s easy to feel like neither your Jewish nor non-Jewish friends really understand what you’re going through.

I’m beginning to think, though, that my family and I are just such outliers when it comes to conversion that our experiences and any advice we might share…might just be irrelevant to most people.  I do participate in a couple of online groups for Orthodox conversion candidates and there isn’t a ton of discussion there, either, but I do answer questions when they’re asked.

On the whole, for most people, conversion is a much shorter part of their lives, a year or two.  It also seems to be a process which causes them to draw inward rather than reach out.  Maybe they have great support networks and Rabbis that guide them more closely.  Maybe they start the process and decide quickly that it’s not for them or else start it and finish it in a rather linear way.

In any case, I’m finding few people needing to hear what I have to say and I feel mostly like I’m talking to myself.  I suppose that has its own value, but I could always just begin a private journal instead.

With the pace of preparing for our move picking up…I’m considering closing down this blog and simply concentrating on what’s right in front of me with my family and our own conversion process.  I don’t feel like I have any great truths to share or unique insights.

I thank those of you who have been reading for traveling along with me.  I’m still unsure of the final destination, but I have faith that we will finish our conversion process and find the right Jewish community to settle down in.  I have that faith because we’re committed to continuing on, no matter how many times we have to start over and how many twists and turns happen along the way.  We’ll move wherever we need to and just keep moving forward.

I hope everyone has a bright and inspiring Chanukah season!


6 thoughts on “Reconsidering The Blog

  1. I am hesitating to say what I need to say for fear of saying something either inappropriate or, G-d forbid, offensive. Therefore, I’ll beg your forgiveness in advance as I in no way wish to offend!
    Just to clarify some issues: I am sure that in your long and full of challenges struggle you have learned that Jews strongly discourage conversion. That is the reason for lack of resources, support networks, guidance, advice, etc. I have been tremendously guarded in my comments (I had to bite my tongue many times!) and reticent to say anything that might be interpreted as encouraging conversion candidates because it is simply against Halocha.
    Those who do make a decision to convert, like you have, find out the hard way that it is an intensely personal, individualized process that for some may take a few months, and for others many years. It is not a matter of learning, i.e. acquiring declarative knowledge, and observing, i.e. implementing procedural knowledge. Only H-shem determines who and when is ready to take that final step, and only He sends that message which has to come to you through a Rabbi.
    I can’t help but admire your determination, as well as your writing talent, and I wish you and your family the best of luck with your move and your goals in life!
    Happy Holidays and many blessings!

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  2. Maybe the fact that your story is unique is why it has to be told? I’ve followed a few conversion blogs over the years and I’m not sure that their stories were always linear or speedy.

    I think it’s hard sometimes to predict who will read a blog. When I started my current blog, I hoped to reach other Jews with mental health issues. I do have a few Jewish readers, but I seem to have a lot of Christian readers with mental health issues. I guess my frum identity isn’t so important to my story, or at least I make it intelligible to outsiders.

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  3. I took a very long break from blogging, but I have to come back for a second to let you know how much we appreciated your story and strength. I was motivated and inspired by your faith and conviction. Fore I hope you don’t go, your story is so important because of its uniqueness, but whatever you do may God pave your path smooth henceforth… stay strong and thanks fir all you’ve shared with us

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  4. Please don’t stop writing this blog. It is really important and I really enjoy reading it. There are a lot of people, including me, who have a very long and hard way to conversion.
    Also the person who implied that encouraging, supporting or guiding conversion candidates is against halocha, is terribly misinformed. Actually it is not against halacha but a Mitzva. The only person who is supposed to discourage the person converting is the converting rabbi, not the entire Jewish world. And after the bet din accepts the person for conversion and the learning process starts, there is supposed to be no more discouragement. Look it up in the Shulchan Aruch! There it is written that a conversion candidate should not be taught too many details about the mitzvot so that they won’t be frightened and change their mind. It also says that you should tell them about punishments of mitzvot and rewards of mitzvot, but about the reward of mitzvot they should speak much more, in order to encourage the conversion candidate. Etc. One of the biggest problems with giur is that people don’t know the halacha and have so many misconceptions, which hurt converts and conversion candidates.

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